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hemrage ([personal profile] hemrage) wrote2012-02-21 06:25 pm

Perfecting the Man - The Epilogue

RETURN TO PART FIVE





The pain was bearable for now. That was the first thing that occurred to him when consciousness rushed to greet him. He took a breath and rolled onto his back - the only position he felt any comfort in of late and even that was short lived as his back quickly began to ache and his ass went numb.

Deep breathing seemed to be helping, a fast pant that was almost putting him at risk of the dizziness and confusion that came with hyperventilation. It was a bloody good job he was lying down, and he adjusted his position on the bed as the pain receded, careful not to move too much in case he woke the men sleeping either side of him.

He’d thought, when the time came, he'd be a neurotic mess, but he surprised himself with how calm he felt. This little one was not Jamie. His fate would not be hers. He sought comfort in that belief, in that certainty. A certainty that had become an intrinsic part of him once his stomach began to swell and the nightmares resurfaced to rob him of much needed sleep. Even news of Adam Connors' death - at his own hand - did nothing to alleviate the fear of losing a second child. He could only thank the two men in his life for that. For their unstinting patience and compassion and love. And the conviction – which he had come to share – that this child was destined to lead a long and happy life.

He looked to his left, to the side of the bed that used to be his, and smiled when Chris moved, his shoulder length hair fanning round his head. He’d been growing it for months now, ever since Jensen had mentioned casually that it suited him – and Jeff’s off handed comment about how it made him look like a girl had only spurred him on.

Turning to his right he felt the heat of Jeff’s body radiating towards him even though he couldn’t see him. Jeff was hiding beneath the covers, the insistent sun obviously annoying him enough, even this early in the morning, for him to pull the comforter over his head.

Chris and Jeff. Jeff and Chris. His boys!

They didn't sleep well now they shared a bed, neither one finding it possible to completely relax around the other. This bed sharing was a new thing. They hadn't been able to bring themselves to do it during the weeks of seclusion, but as Jensen's belly grew, and his nights became more problematic, both had resented any time they were unable to spend with Jensen - even if that time had been spent simply sleeping or wiping away tears.

They'd been worried about him, he knew that, and couldn’t blame them for it. With hindsight, the concern had been warranted. The counselling he'd agreed to undertake had brought to the surface all the pain and grief he thought he'd managed to deal with. Once the counselling began to include Jeff the healing increased.

When the counsellor had brought up the question of Chris' role, that's when things had become interesting.

With the counsellor insisting on talking to each of them separately, Jensen had had no idea what they discussed. But sometimes he caught the two men speaking softly to each other in hushed tones, sometimes they glared and the tension was almost tangible, and on one memorable occasion there'd been fighting – fists and insults flying round the room.

Jensen had refused to take sides as he tended bruises and grazed egos.

Things settled down after that.

Jeff was always going to be Jensen's first love, but Chris was loved too, more than Jensen thought was possible. He’d cast aside the guilt at feeling love and lust towards one who was not his Mate, for Chris who'd been willing to sacrifice everything he wanted out of life for Jensen's happiness.

The first night Jensen had lain in the bed - the one he shared with Jeff - and Chris had walked in, Jensen hadn't known what to expect. Hadn't known how Jeff would react. But what surprised him was when Jeff just walked in, without commenting, and climbed into the bed, pulling Jensen toward him.

That had been the first night of many Jensen's 'side' of the bed had become the middle ... Which was unfortunate as he had frequent nocturnal visits to the bathroom to look forward to as his child began her training as an athlete.

Jensen slept naked, they didn't, but any attempts to get close at night were thwarted as Chris freaked out at the possibility of touching Jeff accidentally – and Jeff shared the same concerns – which caused much frustration, especially when his libido insisted he get some attention. He wasn’t averse to banishing one of the men from the room when it got to be too much.

He listened to the even breathing of his lovers and attempted to match it as he breathed through another bout of pain.

He would have to wake them soon, but not yet. Not yet. He wouldn't be pregnant for much longer and he wanted to savour every moment.

He hadn't named her, not even midst idle fantasies. He refused to tempt fate as he had done with her big brother, but he knew Chris and Jeff both had ideas. They'd chatted to Sam about it, but hadn't discussed it with him – for which she'd chastised them but for which Jensen felt nothing but gratitude. They'd honoured his wishes and let him withdraw from the preparations for this child – though his reluctance to participate had, in part, been the root cause of their insistence he see a counsellor in the first place.

They’d worked together to decorate the nursery, both men buying baby clothes, choosing cribs and toys. Her daddies loved her so very much already, but Jensen knew – hoped - his little girl would forgive him for his lack of pre natal participation. He'd make up for it with love and by lavishing her with all the attention she could want ... until he returned to seclusion. And that return to seclusion would be quick. He'd nurse for six months but he'd be pregnant again within the year. He had two mates to keep happy now and whoever turned out to be his little girl's daddy – they couldn’t know that he already knew because he hadn’t said anything, and they’d have just seen it as a guess on his part anyway - the other would have to be given the chance to sire his own child.

His daughter would be raised with a sibling - or two - close to her own age. Jensen would delay seclusion for a time after that. There were ways of doing it - nurturing his lovers' desire for his milk would be part of it. When he'd begun lactating with Jamie, Jeff had become almost attached to the breast ... now he and Chris claimed one each.

Just the thought of his lovers suckling made his chest ache, and he was almost tempted to ask them to relieve the pressure before they transported him to the birthing unit at the hospital.

He lost his ability to think for a moment as a sharp pain took his breath away.

She was ready to be introduced to the world and she wasn't prepared to wait much longer.

Bracing himself until the new pain passed, he put one arm out to each of his sleeping companions. They woke almost instantly.

"What is it?"

"What's wrong?"

Jensen smiled at each of them in turn, "It's time to go."

The panic that followed was exasperating. The other men eased Jensen's considerable bulk off the bad as they floundered.

The increased weight he’d acquired aggravated his bad leg and the limp that had all but gone. Part of him was embarrassed to be so in need of help, but the largest part revelled in the love, attention and care that surrounded him.

They'd made noises about going back to separate bedrooms once the baby was born - with one on either side of the nursery the baby would never be wanting - but Jensen enjoyed having them both with him and he needed to think of a way to prevent that from happening.

He imagined sex with them - at the same time - and his cheeks flushed. He fantasised about how they could both be inside him at the same time and knew there was a way - if they were willing to be persuaded. This was not the time to get horny and wanting, though, and he forced those thoughts from his head as Chris wrapped a robe round him and Jeff settled warm and comfortable shoes onto his feet.

Their descent downstairs was a slow one, Jeff and Chris each taking an arm as he took a breather every couple of steps. Sam's appearance at his side, once they got halfway down, allowed Chris to run out and bring the car round to the door. She didn't climb in with them, though. It was his Mate's job to be with him through labor and to see their daughter draw her first breath, hear her make her first sound.

Jensen knew she was Jeff's. Knew it like he knew Jamie was a boy and this would be a little girl, but he wanted Chris there too. They were three, now, not two. He needed both of them and so would their children.




Jensen was swept away as soon as they arrived at the hospital. There'd been concerns as the pregnancy progressed that some of the injuries he'd sustained the previous year would hinder his ability to deliver naturally, and though things looked good there was a distinct unwillingness to leave anything to chance.

Jeff stared at Chris, knowing he was just as invested, but not willing to take any comfort in that knowledge.

They'd come to an agreement. Jensen and the children first, any problems they had with each other, second. It had been a hard won accord and there were still hurdles to overcome, not least of which was the fact Jensen was determined to make them a permanent triad.

"Do you reckon it'll be long?" Chris had taken to biting his nails, a nervous habit he'd outgrown as a teen but which had resurfaced recently. Sam and Jensen both chastised him for it, Jeff couldn't see the point. Chris was an adult and if he wanted to bite his nails – and annoy Jensen in the process – it was his right.

Before Jeff could answer, Jensen’s doctor appeared. “How is he?” travelled towards the white coat in stereo.

Doctor Simon Piper smiled, obviously very familiar with over-anxious fathers in his daily life. “Jensen’s doing fine. He’s having some discomfort but he’s very reluctant to take pain meds. No matter what I say to the contrary he’s convinced there’ll be a detrimental effect on the baby if he admits the weakness and takes the analgesics.”

Jeff frowned, “You want me to talk to him?”

Piper shook his head, “Not necessary. I don’t want him to do anything he’s uncomfortable with. I just thought I’d come out here and tell you you can come in. The distraction of having you two there may be just what he needs.”

By the time they arrived at the delivery suite Jensen was in the midst of a strong contraction and Jeff ran round to his far side, holding Jensen’s hand against his knee as Jensen braced and pushed. Fenom labor was notoriously brief but he hadn’t appreciated how far along Jensen was and he was surprised to see the top of a small head appear between Jensen’s legs.

“You’re doing so well, Sweetheart. So well.”

Jensen didn’t respond until the contraction had ended and he could focus on something other than pain – like the child emerging from his body. “Is she alright?”

It was Chris’ turn to talk at that point as he approached Jensen’s unattended shoulder, “You’re doing great.”

“I didn’t ask about me…”

Doctor Piper settled between Jensen’s legs and checked the baby’s airway wasn’t compromised. “Jensen, everything is great. The baby is getting anxious to meet you so I need one more push, please.”




Green eyes gazed up at him momentarily as the baby they belonged to yawned, hiding them from view again. He could hardly believe how much she looked like him. He’d been so sure she’d look more like Jeff and then he wouldn’t have to make the grand announcement – they’d just know – but no, it wasn’t going to be that easy and he was going to have to make the announcement.

He adjusted his daughter’s position as he shuffled along the bed. The painkillers he’d willingly taken after she’d been born not really serving to mask the ache. He couldn’t believe she’d dislocated his hip. The pain wasn’t too bad if he was still, but the doctor had already announced there’d be a return to physiotherapy in his immediate future – and Jensen didn’t miss the pain that accompanied that torture at all.

He swung his legs round, looking longingly at the bathroom, but knowing he had no chance of getting there unaided or with the baby in his arms. Lost in concentration at how he was going to solve this little problem he missed the door opening behind him.

“Where’d you think you’re going?”

Jensen knew he looked pitiful when he turned to face Chris and Jeff, but right now he could live with being pampered and coddled. “Just the bathroom.”

“Give her to me,” Chris took the little girl – Jensen still didn’t know her name(he'd been too busy marvelling at her perfections to ask) – away from him while Jeff helped him to his feet. Leading him to the adjacent bathroom.

Once he’d done what he needed to, Jensen carefully made his way back to the door, opening it but stopping when it was wide enough to hear what was being said on the other side, unseen.

“She’s gorgeous isn’t she?”

Jensen smiled at Jeff’s voice, the love and adoration obvious.

“Yep. She’s so lucky she looks like Jen and doesn’t have your ugly mug.”

They knew she was Jeff’s! How did they know?

Jeff chuckled, “You know any kid Jensen has will be beautiful. It’s the only way one of yours won’t have to wear a paper bag over his head.”

“Ha, ha. Very funny.”

The silence stretched and Jensen was almost willing to give up on his eavesdropping when he heard Chris’ voice grow quieter. “You reckon I will be having a kid with him then?”

Jeff’s voice was just as muted, “Probably more than one if he has his way.”

They sounded so sure – and happy – that Jensen couldn’t fight the grin that spread across his face. He was going to have the perfect family. He knew it. And Chris and Jeff were already halfway there.

He just had to think of a way to make them go all the way.




A/N - I wanted to make this story end somewhere else, so I reckon I'm going to need a timestamp or two to get there. I've already got a couple of ideas but if you want to make suggestions for pieces you reckon are missing from this verse go ahead and make them - whether they're pre-fic, a missing scene from during the story, or what comes further down the line.


RETURN TO PART FIVE | OR TO THE MASTERPOST



[identity profile] izzie7.livejournal.com 2012-02-23 05:41 pm (UTC)(link)
I enjoyed this so much. I love the world-building that you do in your writing, and I would definitely be happy to read any more of this you felt like writing, although I'd also be happy with a conclusion to your desperation verse.... forgive the hint :)

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-23 05:43 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you've enjoyed this story - and you're forgiven the hint. The completion of that story is WAY overdue.

[identity profile] damigella-314.livejournal.com 2012-02-23 06:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Hi, I try to start each Big Bang fic even if I'm not very familiar with the characters. In this case I know nothing at all about them, but I found your story so well written and gripping I couldn't let go (despite some tiny part of me screaming I should find the condition of the fenoms and their lives incredibly creepy).

What a perfect story. Thank you for treating with such delicacy and respect the loss of a pregnancy, and allowing your characters to find true love in a threesome.
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[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-23 06:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much for taking the time to comment, it's very much appreciated - and even though you found it 'creepy', I'm glad it was something you considered 'good'.

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[identity profile] becky43078.livejournal.com 2012-02-23 08:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I really liked this!! Your world building is amazing. :)

Since you asked I do have a suggestion lol. I would love to see Chris and Jeff fall in love as well not just tolerate each other for Jensen's sake. I would be so happy if Jensen's hope for double penetration actually comes true. I REALLY want Jeff and Chris to develop feelings for each other. LIKE A LOT LOL

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-23 08:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you enjoyed this. And as for your suggestion, I like to think Jeff and Chris already care about each other, but for both of them the priority is Jensen. That may change in time, I haven't decided ...

As for the other thing? ;)

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[identity profile] eng-sana.livejournal.com 2012-02-23 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
just so you know....you are sooooo evil because you had me hooked on a new pairing....this Jeff/Jensen/Chris is so very hot and I really didn't see that coming so great job and I can't wait to read more of this....or any new story of this pairing ;)

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-23 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
I have so many ideas for this little family I don't think I'm going to be able to resist leaving them alone for long.

Thanks for taking the time to comment, it's very much appreciated.

[identity profile] antesqueluz.livejournal.com 2012-02-23 08:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Very interesting world you created and a very touching story. Would love to see how the 3 of them come to be a true triad and continue to build their family.

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-23 08:46 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't think I can leave these three alone. I already have too many ideas for what the future holds in store for them to leave this story alone.

Thanks for taking the time to comment, it is very much appreciated.

[identity profile] spn-j2fan.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 02:07 am (UTC)(link)
I was so excited to see this posted. I love your stories, and you didn't let me down.

I kept trying to be upset with the role of the fenom, but I just couldn't. Jensen wasn't upset with his life, and the choices that he wasn't going to have, so why should I, right? I did hate that he didn't know how much it would hurt the first time, but I got past that.

Of course I hated the lose of Jamie, but I loved the connection Jensen had with him. It added to just how happy Jensen was with his life at that point. It also added so much more sadness.

The twist you took with Chris surprised me, both when he entered the relationship and when he took off. But I loved both.

You did a great job with this, and I am really looking forward to the time stamps.

Thank you! :)

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 10:35 am (UTC)(link)
See, I know that Jensen's lack of 'choices' would be an issue with some people, but I believe that 'fenom' rights are in their infancy in this world. Things have drastically improved for them, and there are laws to protect them from harm, but as for 'freedoms'? I think that's an issue for the future.

And I'm glad you enjoyed this. Thanks for taking the time to comment.

[identity profile] darth-firefly.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
I stumbled upon this just running around LJ tonight - and read it all in one sitting.

This was excellent stuff. Loved it very much! Great work!

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 10:36 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you, I'm so glad you liked it. It's not a pairing I've written before - even though I love it - and I wasn't sure how it was going to be received.

[identity profile] spiceblueeyes.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
I enjoyed this story! Angst, sweetness and a great triad :)

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 10:37 am (UTC)(link)
The 'triad'? Yeah .. I think there needs to be more of that ... don't you? lol

Thanks for taking the time to comment, it's very much appreciated.

[identity profile] ayane42.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
I really loved this! Very different from other mpregs I've read.

Really really a great story!!

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 10:37 am (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you enjoyed it. Thanks for taking the time to comment.

[identity profile] whiteted.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 02:59 pm (UTC)(link)
This was amazing

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 05:36 pm (UTC)(link)
That's lovely of you to say so. Thank you.

[identity profile] spike247uk.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 04:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I've spent the day not working as I should have been, but devouring your fic which was utterly amazing!! Such a fantastically conceived world, great characterisations and a story that I just didn't want to end....I CANNOT wait to see more of this verse should you write it.

Thank you for wonderful read x x x

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 05:39 pm (UTC)(link)
You're so welcome. Thank you very much for taking the time to write such a lovely comment (but I don't want you to get into trouble or not working)

[identity profile] becky43078.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 04:40 pm (UTC)(link)
I know it's an amazing fic when I think about it the next day. I don't know why but this really affected me (in a good way.

I also know it's good when I wonder what is going to happen to them and come up with scenarios in my head lol. Usually after the fic is over I move on.

I think about I want Jeff and Chris to fall in love (I know you said it won't happen but a girl can dream lol) Also about Jensen having another kid with Jeff and also a couple with Chris.

Sorry that I'm gushing so much.

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 05:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh gush away. I love that you enjoyed this so much, I really wasn't sure that it would work for anyone but me.

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[identity profile] idiot4dean.livejournal.com 2012-02-24 08:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Love the story, its to your usual high standard. I've been doing spellbound city on facebook and imagined their world being a bit like it but without the attacks!!!

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-25 10:30 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't know 'spellbound city', but thanks for the lovely comment.

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[identity profile] deanangst.livejournal.com 2012-02-25 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
Great story. I was so upset when they lost Jamie. I'm glad that you showed that it affected everyone and not just Jensen.

I'm so happy witht he way you allowed Chris to become part of the couple... That you allowed Chris to remain a gentleman and a friend to both instead of having him force his way in.

I would really love for you to continue this story. I'd love to see Jensen get his wish to have both his boys... and I'd love to see Lena predictions of Chris and Jeff play out....because i thinkg Chris must be a little in love with Jeff all along to have lived there for so long.

And I'd love to see Jensen and Chris have a baby... or 2

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-25 10:32 pm (UTC)(link)
I have to admit I've a good few ideas about how I want this story to develop... And more children are definitely in their future.

[identity profile] seacity.livejournal.com 2012-02-26 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
I really like this! I think Jensen was so lucky with Jeff as his mate. Someone who seen as a companion instead of a possession (like Connors saw him). It mad me so sad for the boys when they lost Jamie. I didn't see that one coming!

I loved the angst you created with Chris struggling with his feelings for Jensen. I was estatic you involved him in the relationship. I would love to see more of this story!

P.S. As you can see, I love the exclamation mark, lol! :P

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-26 07:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Nothing wrong with exclamation marks, I'm quite fond of them too!

I'm glad you want more, I do too. I'm very fond of this trio.

[identity profile] xwacky.livejournal.com 2012-02-26 05:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Good to see a new story from you! Interesting world building. The main characters are well fleshed out. Thanks for sharing.

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-26 07:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for taking the time to comment, it's very much appreciated.

[identity profile] nimrodell.livejournal.com 2012-02-26 11:21 pm (UTC)(link)
What a awesome story. Loved it very much!
Thanks for writing and for its threesome adorable!
Hugs!!

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-27 06:11 pm (UTC)(link)
So glad you enjoyed it. Thanks for taking the time to comment, it's very much appreciated.

[identity profile] pollyspn.livejournal.com 2012-02-27 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
Good to see a new story from you! This is amazing!

This world that you built is very very interesting as well as the main characters... I confess that fenom's life bother or pissed me a little, but I can understand the why their lives are like so... However I can't help and I think this is a crap.. I think this is because our feminist thoughts *smiles*... But Jeff is so amazing, so loving and he loves so much Jensen.. Jensen wasn't unhappy with his life, wasn't bitter or anything... So, I move on and have accepted it like something reasonable...

Chris was a great surprise and the Jamie's death broke my heart.. Other thing that broke my heart was see how Jensen was so afraid and so reserved and so distant about their new pregnancy with his little girl.. Perfectly acceptable but not less painful...

You asked us about hints and ideas.. Well, I'll make some..

I really would like Jensen's POV about his pregnancy... Or even about Jamie and his death...
I know that Jensen and his family are doing well, but I would like that Jen had a talk with his dad and mom about Jeff and everything else..
Other: Jeff and his jealousy of Jensen on Chris or even one of Jensen's friends..
And of course I wanna see a double penetration *_* ... And would be great that Jensen had pleasure, too.

And I know you have a good cards for us, right?

Thank you for sharing it and congrats!! Brazilian hugs! (sorry for grammatical errors but English isn't my first language)

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-27 06:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I can see why a fenoms life would bother you. Their lot is much better than it used to be but it still has a long way to go to be 'fair'. Not that Jensen would agree. I think he's pretty much a child of the system. If he wasn't then he'd be far less happy with his life ... And I think I hurt him too much to make him have to fight the 'system' too.

Thanks for the comment, it's very much appreciated.

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[identity profile] firesign10.livejournal.com 2012-02-27 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
*whew* that ended so much better than I feared :-D I just wasn't sure how Jeff and Christ would really take to being co-mates, and about Jensen's rather precarious mental state there. Thank god they were able to help each other through the pain. Still having a ways tp go is fine, if the initial hurdles are crossed! Kudos on creating such an interesting world and society - I really enjoyed this! And despite the traumas trying to kill me ;-) you did a really fantastic job delineating everyone's thoughts and feelings. Very compelling!! I definitely want a timestamp or 3! Especially if Jeff and Chris are finally gonna man up with Jensen all together :-D

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-02-27 08:10 pm (UTC)(link)
I know, for a while there, it looked like a happy ending was beyond them, but I just can't bring myself to leave things bleak and miserable.

I'm glad you enjoyed this, and thank you so much for taking the time to leave a comment.

[identity profile] pigeongirl99.livejournal.com 2012-02-27 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Your world-building is amazing, Sweetie, I am very intrgued by the entire universe you've created here, and I very much look forward to timpstamps set here.

edited to add.... 2nd comment deleted as LJ is being a bloody pain and either eating my comments or duplicating them! Sorry!
Edited 2012-02-27 23:36 (UTC)

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-03-05 08:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks for the wonderful words. My world building pales into insignificance next to yours, but I'm so glad you don't think I'm a complete failure at it. Maybe one day I'll create a wonderful world without angst or trauma ... But until then bleak and flawed is the way I go!

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[identity profile] princesslanie.livejournal.com 2012-03-04 04:17 pm (UTC)(link)
great story. thanks for sharing.

[identity profile] hemrage.livejournal.com 2012-03-05 08:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you very much for commenting.

[identity profile] ramona4jake.livejournal.com 2012-03-06 10:54 pm (UTC)(link)
I finally got to read your story : AWESOME !!! love all of it; the world you built, the Jensen you created, and all the people around him ! most of all I loved the last part, where all 3 try to become a family, and how funny Jeff and Chris are in bed !! ;o) and I would very much like to read more about this particular situation ! :D

[identity profile] karraparis.livejournal.com 2012-03-14 03:32 am (UTC)(link)
So I already sent you a message but I'm still going to tell you here how much I'm loving this story so far. I'll most likely be bugging you about how much I love it!

[identity profile] melitta4ever.livejournal.com 2012-04-13 05:55 am (UTC)(link)
I like the whole seclusion idea. The universe you created is very well detailed. It was interesting to read the anatomy of fenoms.
I gotta say, I was expecting a totally different way with the bastard Connor but you got my heart when Chris entered the seclusion. Yeay...

[identity profile] oldbatj.livejournal.com 2012-04-29 04:08 am (UTC)(link)
Such a wonderful AU tale! Loved your Jeffrey from start to finish !! Jensen could never have found a kinder, gentler, more loving man than him.

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